The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places.~Ernest Hemingway

Meditation Seventeen

Laughter is the sun that drives winter from the human face.

~Victor Hugo

 

Let the sun shine in.

Recovering a whole person is serious business. This makes it doubly important to maintain a sense of humour and to laugh frequently. Relationships depend on it. Lives depend on it.

Laughing gives your muscles a workout, moves oxygen throughout the body, lowers blood pressure and boosts the immune system. It also releases mood-elevating endorphins, which can alleviate pain, anxiety and depression.

Watching comedies, sharing jokes or just plain clowning around—there are countless ways to open up a window of light-hearted humour. You might even try laughing without prompts, as John Graham-Pole suggests in the book, Illness and the Art of Creative Self-Expression. Simply laugh. Now. Begin with a “teehee” and work yourself into a good belly laugh. Don’t worry if it feels phony. You’re practicing. Just fake it until you make it, even if it makes you feel a little embarrassed. Dr. Graham-Pole says, “If you’re like everyone else I know, you’ve been hanging onto a lot of embarrassment for far too long.  It’s high time to have a hearty laugh and be rid of it.”

So, peel back the shades, and lighten up.

I’m too funny for my blinds.

Eee-hee, eee-hee-hee. Ho, ho, ho! Ha-ha-ha… ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. Ahhhhhh-ha-ha-ha-ha!

 

What loneliness is more lonely than distrust?

~George Elliot

 

An invisible cloak is draped around my heart and nothing can get in. Nothing.

After years of practice in the art of self-preservation we sometimes overreact. At the slightest hint of a warm breeze—a smile, an expression of goodwill, a helping hand extended—we become rigid, impenetrable. This can have a negative effect on our relationships. We might even be accused us of being distant, arrogant or snobbish.

Despite appearances, we don’t necessarily believe we’re superior. Nor inferior. We simply feel a greater-than-average need to protect ourselves.

Closing off in situations of extreme stress is a way of coping. We harden in order to safeguard the most vulnerable parts of ourselves. That’s natural. But it’s not in our best interests to stay that way. When the moment or season has passed, it’s time to return to a more fluid state. Become receptive once again. Connect with others. And grow.

There is no need to hide from the sun. Melting does not mean meltdown. In this scene you are the tree, not the ice! A little warmth will do you good.

Come in from the cold.

 

My roots are tender but I am hardy, perennial, enduring. I can weather all seasons, including those of the heart. I welcome each in its turn.

 

 

 

 

Rise

and stand tall.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As we try on new ways of doing things we may be reminded of how we did them in the past. Reflecting on the places we’ve been and what was done there can stir up unpleasant memories. And shame.

Who was that and what was I thinking?

Take this as a sign of recovery, that the person you were then has undergone a transformation. You have begun to see yourself, your future and, perhaps, your history in new light. You are growing.

You cannot change the past. You can change what it means to you.

Do you see that your experiences have brought you to the place you are now? Do you see how you have you have grown?

 

I have a long way to go. But then again, I’ve come a long way already!


“Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming…”

~Dory the regal blue tang fish

In a scene of the computer-animated film Finding Nemo, Dory’s companion Marlin the clownfish, becomes exasperated with her singing and exclaims, “See, I’m going to get stuck now with that song–now it’s in my head!”

Some messages do get stuck in our heads. Those that have been delivered repeatedly are particularly clingy. Songs and other messages with a lyrical quality are even more pervasive—especially if they contain repeated words—and can be called into play almost instantly.

What short, memorable phrases bubble up during your most challenging moments?

Do they help move you forward?

Or do they hold you back?

If the messages in your brain threaten to pull you under, grab a life line! Reach for words that inspire. Create a new internal library of uplifting quotes, affirmations, and songs. Rewrite the script in your head by replacing outdated, limiting, hurtful messages, with those that encourage you onward.

And just keep swimming. Your new life is taking shape.

As the curator of my internal library, I say, “Out with the old scripts!” My inner space is now reserved for positive, uplifting messages only.

One night I dreamt that I was riding my horse along a country road…

“I think we’d better turn back,” I said, feeling that we were getting a little too far from home. As we made a U-turn on the gravel and headed for the farm, a gray haze settled over and it began to rain… Afraid that my horse would step into the path of an oncoming vehicle, I pulled on the reins.

The horse suddenly reared up on its hind legs, and I thought I would be thrown to the ground. Instead, I became wound into its large, curved neck as it whispered in my ear,  “Don’t do it again!”

“I won’t,” I whispered back. I promise.”

~Excerpt from The Dream Horse


Author’s Notes:

I had never owned a horse. But as I sat writing the details of my dream, the meaning of its intimate presence became clear.

As a young girl, I’d been free-spirited and eager to explore the world around me. Along the way I made some bad decisions and, out of fear, attempted to rein in my adventurous spirit. That essential part of me, however, would not be restrained. Not indefinitely.

Take good care of your Dream Horse.

Within each of us there is an eternal, unerring wisdom that seeks to direct us at work, at play, even in our sleep. We only have to be open to it. With practice, we begin to connect with it more often. We begin to understand how it can change our direction. We begin to believe that life is good; that we are good, and secure.

Out of obligation, shame or fear, have you sought to disown some part of your self?

Heed the wisdom within. Honor your true nature.

And take good care of your Dream Horse.

I am learning to trust my inner wisdom. I am inspired to reclaim my true self.


I’d rather not talk about it.

 

Is there an elephant in your living space?

Many of us have subjects we would rather not think about, much less discuss with others. They can, however, occupy our thoughts and influence our behavior. They may take up so much room that family and friends have to tiptoe around them, too. To make matters worse, they could hang around indefinitely.

If we let fear run the show.

If there’s a big burly bear guarding the door, it’s a sure thing the elephant’s not going anywhere. Perhaps the first order of business is to tame the bear. Not an easy task. But you have the power.

You can turn that overbearing monster into a cuddly toy.

Give fear a whole new face with paints. Open your journal and scribble it a brand new name—Rejection, Shame, Loss. See it for what it really is. As you develop new perspectives and begin to take control, fear takes on new meaning. You find that not only do you want to express what is in your thoughts and your heart, you can.

Step by step, you can free the elephant.

 

Shameful secrets no longer dominate my living space because fear no longer guards the door. I am free!

 

Do not fear mistakes—there are none.

~Miles Davis

Night has passed. This is the beginning of a brand new day.

As you rise…

Take a deep breath. Stretch. Bathe in early morning light. Allow gentle breezes of change to wash over you. And awaken to a new day, to a world of possibilities.

No matter what you did yesterday, or how long the night lingered on, today is fresh and full of potential. Like a blank canvas, it is untried, and awaits your input. This is your day. You are the artist. Now, get to work on your masterpiece.

Splash a little color. Grab a few lines. Experiment with form and texture. Be curious and bold. Make mess. Seek beauty. Give little thought to mistakes. When things fall short of expectation, remember that time is rolling on. Moments pass. The day is a work in progress. As are you.

Breathe. Stretch. Absorb and express. You are growing, every single moment. Let that, if nothing else, inspire you. And begin. Simply begin.

As the artist of my day, I choose to anticipate, participate and appreciate. One moment at a time, I see that I truly am a work in progress.

There is a lot of pain in this world. War, famine, oppression, disease, environmental sabotage—this short list paints a pretty depressing picture. And that’s just the wide shot. Up close and personal are the people we know who have experienced chronic illness, abuse, relationship breakdown, divorce, work-related stress and financial instability.

Life can be hell.

But then again…

Zooming in from another angle, we find peaceful neighbors, kind strangers, caregivers, visionaries, enthusiasts, builders, advocates, champions and leaders. One by one, they testify to the power of the human spirit. Hold onto these snapshots. Frame them as part of a living collage; a stirring, vibrant panorama of healing.

Now, put yourself in the picture and focus on you. Get close. Look deep inside. View your self from many angles.

Have you captured your true essence?

Do you see how precious and necessary you are to the rest of us?

Perhaps not yet. But you’re getting the picture.

I am compassionate, resourceful and strong. I am a little bit of heaven here on earth.

Every flower must grow through dirt.

~Anonymous

The Promise of Spring is growth.

Do not doubt your potential.

It is not uncommon to fall back into old patterns of thought, to doubt that a new life is possible. You may try to hide in the familiar comfort of the past and go underground. You might actually even attempt to pull the earth in over your head. The seasons, however, are changing. And you are destined to emerge.

Says who? We say—those of us who, like you, have doubted our potential. We’ve seen your kind before. We are your kind, and we have achieved the impossible. So can you. Look how much you’ve grown already.

You are a survivor and a thriver. Believe that, and reach for the light. Although you may not see it now, the best of you really is yet to come.

I am emerging. My destiny is to bloom.

Look out world!

A mind that is stretched to a new idea never returns to its original dimensions.

~Oliver Wendell Holmes

 

You put your best foot forward, make a concerted effort to say and do the right things, attempt to be positive, rational, and understanding. But no matter how hard you try, you don’t always shine. Your heart gets ahead of your brain and you say something you wish you hadn’t. You do the thing you thought you would never do. You don’t understand, or perhaps don’t want to. At least, not yet.

Stuff happens. Sometimes you simply get the blues. Just don’t let the blues get you. Don’t kick yourself when you’re down. Be still, instead, and let it rain. Allow yourself to be less than perfect, to be human. All is not lost, even though it may feel that way.

We don’t understand everything. We’re not consistently rational. We don’t always get it right. But there is hope. You know your rainbow is out there somewhere. You know you can do better. And you will again, after the worst is over, just as the sun breaks through.

 

I can do this. And keep on doing it. I really can.